i thought i knew

these are some thoughts i have had for a few days. i didnt want to add them on to the other blog b/c there is no correlation.

to my karsen:

i thought i knew what love was when i found out you were growing inside of me

i thought i knew what love was the first time i heard your heartbeat

i thought i knew what love was the first time i saw you in my belly

and i really thought i knew what love was the first time i felt you kick

then when i could see you move, i really thought i knew

it wasnt until the day we brought you into this world that i really knew what love is

the first time i heard you take your first breath, and let out your first cry

the first time i saw your precious face, the first time i kissed your head. 

those moments were when i realized what love is

love is every moment i get to spend with you

when you couldnt roll over, couldnt crawl, couldnt feed yourself, those moments are what made life worth living

then you started to roll over, crawl, feed yourself. you grew up right in front of my eyes and i knew what love was

watching you take your first steps, playing with your toys, and sleeping so sweetly in your bed.

that is love to me

holding you in my arms, feeling complete, and so happy. 

that is love. the peace you give me, the light you bring in my life

you showed me what it means to love someone unconditionally

and you showed me what it is like to feel that love from someone

i know that you love me and

i love you karsen david, now, yesterday, and always

i plan on writing that in his baby book for him to read when he is a lot older. i wrote it on here so that i could have it written down somewhere.

i am so thankful to have karsen and matt. i love the two of them more than i ever thought was possible. i truly am blessed to have the two of them as my family. 

and of course i love our extended family, my mommy and daddy, jan, joe, nicole. all of them.